第一百八十九章一审24(2/6)

                                                                                                                  我最开始是想割腕自杀，可是我没有找到锋利的刀片，我只得换其他自杀方式。
                                                                                                                                                                
                                                                                                                                                                我观察到房顶有一个老式吊扇，吊挂吊扇的铁钩子足够坚固，我把解开的绳索挽成一个死套，我踩着活动板床把绳套挂在铁钩子上，我把脖子套进绳套里，我踢开活动板床，我的身子立即悬挂起来，绳套立即勒紧我的脖子，我无法呼吸。
                                                                                                                                                                我们曾经看过电影，看到演员表演自杀或者死亡前的情景，演员在生命终结前会有丰富多彩的心理活动，会回忆许多美好的或者痛苦的事情。
                                                                                                                                                                
                                                                                                                                                                
                                                                                                                                                                事实上，电影中表演的都是艺术，而不是真实的。当我临近死亡时，什么回忆都没有，只有室息的痛苦和对死亡的害怕。我立即后悔了，我只有一个念头，我不想死！
                                                                                                                                                                可是，我己经无力自救，我挣扎得越厉害，绳索勒得越紧，几乎几个呼吸功夫，我就昏死过去，我的脑子一片空白，我就要死了。”
                                                                                                                                                                法庭上鸦雀无声，所有人都在听徐虹“讲故事”，这是一个女人自杀的过程，这是一个伤心故事。哀莫大于心死，一个女人因为被亲人误解，强行关进精神病院，在里面丧失所有做人的尊严，她选择了自杀，可以理解为她的软弱，也可以理解为她的抗争。
                                                                                                                     

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