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                                                                                                    那女孩并不算美，普通的清秀长相，最近学习压力大，还长了不少青春痘。                                                                                                                                                                但他幻想过的同桌和团支书，校园时代交往过的两个女友，也都不是班花。                                                                                                                                                                他的冲动，仿佛本能地追求着一种叫做可行性的东西。                                                                                                                                                                也就是说，他一直在意淫的，可以叫做行动计划。而且，全都是有可能成功的那种。                                                                                                                                                                就拿最近她幻想的女学生来说，开始意淫后，他甚至上班路上都会留意院里她常走的路线究竟有没有合适下手的地方。                                                                                                                                                                这让他感到害怕。                                                                                                                                                                如果是和父母一起住的时候，他兴许还比较容易自控。                                                                                                                                                                可父亲身体不好办了病退后，就跟母亲回老家县城的房子休养去了，十天半个月不见一次面——可能也是因为上次和女友分手跟他们吵了一架的缘故。                                                                                                                                                                现在他独自住在家里等拆迁的老房子里，买的新房还是毛坯，因为爸妈说不定下结婚的事就不装修，免得过时。                                                                                                                                                                他感到孤独，孤独到更加频繁的幻想，幻想后的空虚让他自责，陷入到深深的痛苦，然后，再因这痛苦而更加孤独。                                                                                   

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