第二百二十三章订婚(3/8)

                                                                                                                                                              我知道，无论我在现实里和秋桐如何接近，我都无法改变她的命运，她的命运已经不能由自己来主宰，我大脑里无数次幻想过的海市蜃楼正在逐渐幻灭，而最后，将会彻底破碎，彻底消失。
                                                                                                                                                                她终归是要属于李顺的，要做李家的媳妇，而绝对不会是易家。
                                                                                                                                                                我狠狠地撕扯着自己的头发，发出一声绝望的嚎叫……
                                                                                                                                                                我不明白，李顺不是一直信誓旦旦要秋桐离职要秋桐放弃雪儿才会答应和她结婚的吗，现在虽然不是结婚，但也是向结婚迈进了一大步，李顺难道放弃了初衷，妥协了？
                                                                                                                                                                对于这次订婚，李顺是否心里真的愿意呢？还是他迫于父母的强大压力不得已而答应呢？对于做事反复无常不按常理出牌的李顺，我无法用正常人的思维去思量他，我猜不透他到底是怎么想的。
                                                                                                                                                                不管怎么想，我心里清楚，我自己刻意制造的美丽的肥皂泡正在逐渐分解膨胀，很快，就要化为乌有。
                                                                                                                                                                我一味让自己沉浸在虚幻的梦境里，最后的结果是我将毁灭自己的灵魂。
                                                                                                                                                                我继续看下去。
                                                                                                                                                                “客客，不说这些了，说这些会让你和我都不开心，都不快乐……其实，这都是早晚的事情，我自己也不该为此而老是郁郁于怀，让大家都不开心，我的命就是如此啊，我为什么老是要和命运过不去呢，我应该学会放下，学会接受命运安排的这一切……呵呵，你看，我笑了一下，我真的笑了。”
         

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