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                                                                                                                      雄哥住在好远的半山腰，平常也没听他说过喜欢我，偶尔学校没课时他会绕到家里头来，送我一束野姜花、牵牛花或是些我不认得的花。天气热的时候，他会请我到街上泡沫红茶店吃冰、喝我爱喝的金香奶茶。                                                                                                                                                                热的过头了，他就带我到村尾的溪边游泳，可我没有泳衣，更不敢在他面前脱衣服下水，多半躲在树下的大石头上，看他跳水，游那难看的狗爬式。小丽说雄哥一定对我有意思，可是我那时候哪懂，一直把他当哥哥看。                                                                                                                                                                听他说出喜欢我，我才真正相信小丽的话，国中毕业后的八、九月，只要雄哥一到家中找我，我就会脸红，虽然他没再提过娶我的事，可是常常两人走在街上，我都以为我们会这样一直走下去。                                                                                                                                                                然而没多久，最疼我的老妈死了，老爸贪杯又好赌，欠下一屁股债，被逼得走头无路，只好把我跟两个姐姐卖到大都市里换钱，开始了用身体赚钱的日子。                                                                                                                                                                老爸说这是最后一条路，要救他并且让弟弟妹妹好好念书，这是唯一能走的路。                                                                                                                                                                我从来不怪爸爸，只是越来越怕遇到雄哥，他看我的眼神从来没变过，只是我怕他知道我干这么低贱的工作就再也不理我了。                                                                                                                                                                没有人相信我的爸爸、妈妈和两个姐姐就这么相继死了，连我自己也不太相信，人命真的就像七月的凤凰花一样，秋风一起就纷纷飘落满地。医生说，这是家族遗传疾病，我过得这么苦，有时候想想，倒不如真得病死了算了。                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           可是大弟那天拿出成绩单给我看，第三名，我还以为是我看走了眼，小时候我们三个姐姐从来也没挤进前十名过，像这么聪明的弟弟，我死了谁来照顾他？         

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