第七十二章(3/12)

中，一切作为都是枉然的。”                                                                                                                                                                爱因斯坦说过这样的话，或许就是因此，他才能忍受难以想象的痛苦，坦然面对自己人生最后苦痛。                                                                                                                                                                耶稣说：“彼得，我告诉你，今日鸡还没有叫，你要三次说不认得我。”                                                                                                                                                                也正因耶稣是位命运论者，所以祂选择站上十字架，以替天下万民承受这许多罪恶。                                                                                                                                                                但祂有替我承受这许多罪恶吗？                                                                                                                                                                我相信没有，因为我一直如此痛苦，因为我是祂永远的罪人，没有获得宽恕的资格……                                                                                                                                                                因此，我永远相信，神的存在……                                                                                                                                                                圣经写着：“神不听罪人，惟有敬奉神、遵行他旨意的，神纔听他。”                                                                                                                                                                但我更相信，祂本不是任何一个宗教的神，也没有特定的样子，但祂永远都会在那里，看护天下万民，直到末世的那一天。                                                                                                                                                                信神的我，好多冰冷夜晚，我只能躺在棉被内，无助哭泣，以灵魂哭喊祂的名。                                                                                                                                                                我是那么害怕，害怕这个世界，害怕未知的未来，害怕我所无法接受的一切，所以我只能选择改变这一切，于炼狱中寻求天堂之门，只求让雯雯得以进至天堂光辉处……             

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