第一百八十九章蛋疼的纠葛(1/8)

每每看到浮生若梦在那里沉默着，我的心就隐隐作疼，她到底在看什么想什么呢？她为什么不说话呢？她知道我也在看着她吗？
                                                                                                                                                                好几次，我忍不住想和浮生若梦说话，每次抬起手，却最终又艰难地落下，现实和虚拟的差距如此之大，我能和她说什么呢？她又能给我承诺什么呢？
                                                                                                                                                                终究来说，虚拟是一场飘渺的梦幻，而现实却又是不可更改的，她无法走出那个现实。再和我在这里接触，最终毁掉的会是什么？
                                                                                                                                                                为什么我就不能勇敢面对现实接受现实忘却这场注定要空幻一场的梦，让自己从不可救药的沉迷里走出来呢？
                                                                                                                                                                想想冬儿，想想海珠，想想云朵，想想秋桐，我的心就高度纠结起来。
                                                                                                                                                                我不知道我到底该何去何从，我想尝试着让自己彻底放下，忘掉过去的一切痛楚，忘掉那深入骨髓的亲情，忘掉那自欺欺人的梦幻，认真去面对海珠，接受海珠。
                                                                                                                                                                可是，每每这样想来，却总是不能让自己的心情潇洒起落，每每看到现实里的秋桐，每每看到QQ里和浮生若梦的聊天记录，我几度坚强起来要真正让自己接受海珠的念头又疲惫地虚弱下去，我终究战胜不了自己的心魔。
                                                                                                                                                                现在，云朵和我之间似乎保持了一种相对平和安分的关系。
                                                                                                                                                                她对我的情感我心里明白，依旧没有褪色，甚至更加浓郁。但是，云朵似乎变得理智和明智谨慎多了。
                                                                                                                                                                而我对云朵，亲情远远大于爱情，我更愿

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