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                    她没有说什么，只是依然安静听着。但她这样的反应，反而让我又开始退缩，更想要为自己找个借口。                                                                                                                                                                “哥哥知道这样说很奇怪……但因为我……我一直无法控制……”                                                                                                                                                                雯雯她依然不发一语的面无表情看我，如同知道这是我一向会说的借口。                                                                                                                                                                看着她这样的表情，当时我越来越承受不住自己内心的冲突。后来，我还是告诉自己不能再逃避，否则未来我将会如同那晚一样再伤害雯雯一次，我也将会永远失去她。                                                                                                                                                                “……雯雯，我爱你……因为哥哥真的爱你……”                                                                                                                                                                当我终于告诉雯雯我对她的情感，那瞬间，我如同放下心中的大石头，潜藏已久的秘密，得以获得解脱。                                                                                                                                                                那时雯雯她的表情我永远忘不了。我能看的出来，她略为惊讶，不知道该怎么回应我。不过我也不需要她的回应，因为我知道事情走到这个地步，我也只能离开她。                                                                                                                                                                “对不起，雯雯……哥哥会跟爸妈说要离开这个家，等我今年学校毕业后就会自己一个人搬出去生活，也有可能马上就要去当兵，到时你就去外婆家住吧，外婆会照顾你的……”                                                                                                                                                                当时我是真的有这种觉悟，因为除了自己的一生，我也必将连雯雯的一生也毁掉，而这绝不是我希望看见的。要痛苦的话，我宁愿自己一个人痛苦，绝不愿意看见我心爱的女人与妹妹因为我的关系而一生也被毁掉。                                                                                                                                                                接着，我转身离开客厅，向走廊走去……                              

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